posted 11-04-2000 07:24 AM            

Taxi

Do not stop the car.
Allow me to remain in this transit forever.
Travelling under tall balls of light of an orange hue,
Towards some ominous dark beyond,
Where the road thins out and we can not see.
The window is cold against my cheek,
His casual and gradual conversation soothes me and I am happy
In my misery.
Leave me be.
Leave me with thoughts silently passing through my head.
The night happens over again and a tear escapes.
I do not want to go back, nor arrive at my destination.
This limbo is comforting.
Leave me be.
Her restrictions, his persistence,
His shouting and their ridicule.
The trivialities of life weigh me down in this uncomfortable car seat,
And yet this is the only place I want to be.
One step back, I will again be amongst the misery I escaped from.
One step forward, and I will be face to face,
With the sorrowful, monotonous existence I am presented with each new day.
I feel ostracised when I am surrounded by others,
But in this solitude,
I can demolish the facade that kept me fitted with other’s ideals.
I am me here in this solitude,
Leave me be.

posted 11-05-2000 03:27 PM            

Onlooker

Watching you.
Watching your every carefree movement
As if you were a child naive to its enviroment.
You move with such confidence it seems surreal;
To glide through your actions as a shark's fin cuts through tranquil glassy seas,
With such ease,
As if there were nothing that could harm you.

You are invincible, You are what you will.
You carry yourself as if you thought they could throw everything they had,
And still, you would remain-
One eternal glowing flame.

Watching you.
Admiring your pure confidence.
Inspired by your unwavering self confidence.
To be so sure - how must that feel?
To live your life as if no one else's opinion could bring you to your knees.
It must please, to be so undoubtedly you.

by manic_224

posted 11-06-2000 12:50 AM            

*ahem*

Why does Pez not post her poetry here? Perhaps she learnt the virtues of dignity while she was gone, or else simply snapped out of the fantasy realm where her poorly written teenage trash poetry, full of uninspired typical forms and sickening cliches together with a mangled and disjointed way of wording things more suited to a dislexic child, could possibly compare to Manic's quality and enjoyable poems.

posted 11-06-2000 12:53 AM            

*applause*

posted 11-06-2000 05:48 AM            

(And by the way, good stuff, manic! )

posted 11-07-2000 02:38 PM            

I've not posted cause I have no time to find my stuff.

posted 11-09-2000 11:33 PM            

Tostito....dignity? I laugh at the thing.

posted 11-10-2000 04:48 AM            

You are a bad writer.

Manic is a good writer.

This equals you having no dignity.

posted 11-10-2000 05:23 AM         

Pez dear, poetry is a written expression of our reactions and feelings to what is happening around us. Whether good or bad, it aids the writer.

Call it therapy...and keep on writing, Pez! If it feels right for you...then it is "Good Poetry".

(P.S.: I liked your poetry, then again, I like all poetry...because you can see inside that person's soul, and that can be very beautiful!)

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posted 11-10-2000 06:50 AM            

Lotus likes lycra,
take those bike pants away from
my retina, whore.

How'd you like that poem, hanger-on scrag?

posted 11-10-2000 07:03 AM         

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good looking girls condescend to tell uglies

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What my poetry is or isn't I care not two hoots. As for your poetry...get the genre right. Technically, it is a HAIKU. You are very good at trotting out a couple of banal lines for your own self-centred amusement.

Now try something a bit more substantial instead of the same old tripe that you accuse us lot of dishing out to others!

Grow up, you bully...and try someone your own size. Petty and small minded. Life is not about taking people down at every opportunity.

posted 11-10-2000 07:07 AM         

I am heartily sick of the the bile and criticism Tostito spits out at regulars on these boards, destroying good topics on whim at the drop of a hat.

posted 11-10-2000 07:11 AM         

Go the mushroom. Kept in the dark and thriving on bullshit. Now come back and say that is me. Okay for you to mimic others...but god help anyone else who does likewise.

Well...slowing down in your adolescence?
Where's your return diatribe, hey?

posted 11-10-2000 07:38 AM            

You fucking trollop. You are too funny. Too easy. And far too stupid.

And as for Manic, I put manic on a pedestal if anything. That's one sliver of your spastic huffy-fit cake I will not abide. Manic is pretty much the best person on the boards as far as I am concerned.

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posted 11-10-2000 08:06 AM            

You are so fucking stupid I would cry if I knew you in the outside world. A message boards and the speed of replies is relevant? Clutch at a few more straws, Lotus, take your time.
I'll be in the next room drinking a beer and watching TV, call me when you're done and we can dance some more.

posted 11-10-2000 08:13 AM         

And yes, Manic IS on of the nicest people on the boards...I agree with that. I enjoy both her poetry and her posts.

No, I don't do drugs. Not Prozac, not anything. I also don't do vitriolic posts at people who have done nothing to deserve them either! But I will NOT see you persistently putting down others on these boards without standing up for them!

Ugly old bitch? Oh yes, but I am an alive MAD ugly old bitch! Get to my age without having your nasty little puke-brained adolescent guts bashed out and THEN come talk to me...if you live that long! Smart arses like you get their come-uppance...and yours is coming, boy!

posted 11-10-2000 09:03 AM            

1- I am a hypocrite
2- I ridicule 'regulars'
3- I ridicule my friend Manic and she apologises (??)
4- I am a mushroom... ahem.
5- I will get beaten up before I reach the age of 50 (approximate age, judging by the wrinkles in your photo).
6- I post abuse at people who "don't deserve" it.
7- I have indigestion.
8- I am a bully.
9- I am petty and small minded.

That will do quite well for now. Let's straighten some things out for the stupid one, shall we?

1- I will not have this. A hypocrite is one thing I am not. Explain if you expect to be taken seriously.
2- The crappy regulars. Rockjock, yourself, Nick Zbu, and the droves of sheep you collect like a power crazy slut. I take pride in this and a certain fancy pantsed delight.
3- Untrue. Your 'too many to reiterate' is an excuse for the lack of such threads. I wish there were some kind of rules of engagement at WWYK, because if there were you would be in contempt. Playing this angle so hard when it is obviously flimsier than a house of cards. I like manic, she likes me, we are friends, get over yourself.
4- Worth replying to? Offensive or in any way witty? Nope. Something a middle aged idiot would think was clever, up there with 'cool bananas'? Yes.
5- Do I laugh now, or would it be preferable to drop you a line when I am a successful tycoon? I have never doubted the fact I am going places, and prove so regularly in my real life. Trashing you fools is a pelasure, unlike you, the internet is not what I strive on nor what I live for. As opposed to you, who finds yourself at a later stage of your life, by the age of 45 or so have managed to attained the coveted position of secretarie's assistant's assistant or something equally low on the food chain, and sired two pathetically stupid children. Congratulations, your life was worth the effort...
6- Thank you, I try.
7- I'll get myself some Mylanta, bile be gone I say. Almost as bad as PFG's 'poison, baaahh!' fiasco. In fact you remind me more of her everyday.
8- "Oh my! I don't know if I can live with myself!" Once again, thank you, I try.
9- Incorrect. I am intelligent. Vastly superior to yourself in the mental stakes. And I would personally classify dragging manic into this as a petty move on your part, you pathetic little snake. You are such a hypocrite.

Did I say hypocrite? I appear to be mimicking, boo fucking hoo. But it is undeniable. You are a complete and sickening phony in every respect, and when you get psyched up like this you let your true colours show with gutter tactics. Have at it, bitch, you've got nothing on me. I take pride in what you seem to hate, and find everything you say contrite and poorly expressed.

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read what I said. I have no idea about Pez's looks...and it is not about that.

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I am heartily sick of the the bile and criticism Tostito spits out at regulars on these boards

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Ah, Lotus, Braveheart would be proud, you're such a defender of the defenseless, such a warm hearted and loving girl who "just can't take it anymore". Pathetic wannabe martyr. You are so WEAK. You and I are fighting here, scrot bag. Not me versus you and your friends. You try to make everything something it is not. You are a spoilt child. I am here for Lotus psychosis, and do not insult those I care about, just the retards you entertain in your spastic fits of artificial happiness. Just you Lotus. Just you. Just.. you... by your self.

Now can you move past exagerated emotive bullshit and get to some sort of a hard point, or will your 'I am really nice, just fed up, plase believe me, I just can't TAKE big bad Tostito's poison any more, BAAAAH!' nonsense continue all night?

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Touch me with your paddles

Touch - simple seisure, pure, unique
You touch, at once my knees go creak,
Touch, I tingle to my core,
You touch, never felt this rapid beat before,
Touch, memories unpleasant, electric drill,
You touch, my body trembles still,
Touch, cold hand, and shock paddles,
You slouch, surrender to defeat
Touch, I die, I am heart failure's slave.

posted 11-10-2000 09:33 AM            

This isn't the best time for this. Lotus is going through a rough time right now. One of her best friends just died. Just go back to making fun of me for a while or something.

posted 11-10-2000 01:55 PM         

Very nice poetry...shame it is stolen. Again, where is something worthwhile that YOU have seriously written? And don't make me laugh...bad for my poor tired old frail body. I am already in fits at you saying you are not a hypocrite. Yes, you take pride in the fact that you are a walking asshole. About time you had those unsightly feet removed from your bum...or was that the last person you metaphorically shat on and swallowed (ass)whole?

I really don't have time for this...but I shall play. What is your gripe with Pez poetry (other than the fact she seems friendly with Nicky and you set out systematically to put down and belittle anyone who is even remotely connected to either Nick or myself? Please don't bother wasting your spew on this one...anyone with half a brain can see it is true.

posted 11-10-2000 02:36 PM         

He seems to think old is the ultimate insult. Or ugly. Or stupid. Means nothing. Same as he once said he thought I had contempt for all youth. WRONG...just his!

posted 11-11-2000 12:09 AM            

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Although it doesn't surprise me in the slightest that someone who would suck dick for money laughs at dignity.

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Tostito, I don't really care if you say I can't write, but when you say something like this I do care.

I do not own the Dragonheart film score cd, I was watching Iria when I wrote that.

I'm a failure? Well I'll just have to work on my skills before I go to college to major in my "bad skill area", now don't I?

Why would I want to seperate myself from the crowd? I already am a loner, because of people like you who said the same old shit every day for my entire social life, causing my self esteem to lower greatly. I now keep to myself with a pissed off attitude when I'm out in public, only with my friends I am actually happy.

I just realized by reacting I am only making you feel better about yourself by letting you know your words got to me.

posted 11-11-2000 02:49 AM            

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How many people have you seen actually die, Tostito?

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Don't talk to me about death, you disgusting emotive little bitch. I am so sick of your sympathy grabs. Keep your snivelling to yourself. I have watched my grandfather waste away in hospital, and had both a cousin and close friend taken from my life by a motorbike accident. What could you possibly hope to know of my life? I believe I treated the death of your asshole friend quite civily till just now. The truth is he was a complete dopey cunt from what I could tell over the internet. Whoops, there went my humanity, I told the truth to a cry baby. Suck it up you sad hag, I find you lacking dignity to a far higher degree than Pez.
Aside from which, a bone to pick- Your eulogy for this 'great friend' was a sad face, you sick bitch! Sad face, lock thread! Is this the level of your friendship? Are you so mentally ill you think an internet smiley is enough? Has your life degraded this far!?

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My gripe is social conscience. Her poetry is sickeningly bad. I hate Zbu and his lackeys, not anyone in contact with you or Zbu. Do I hate Exile? No. Do I hate the moderators who like Zbu, although fewer as time goes on? No. I have disliked Pez in her own right for a very long time, at first relatively secretly, and then openly. Far before her bad poetry. I believe if you asked PixieChic she could support this as witness.

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Same as he once said he thought I had contempt for all youth.

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posted 11-11-2000 04:30 AM         

I deleted all the conversations you had because of the pettiness and bitterness you used to sprout out at me. I got fed up with it and hence did not save the proof you say I am lacking. That was a LONG time ago I wised up to you.

Look to yourself because it is the biggest malarkey that these boards have ever not heard! We sicken each other...I am sure we can both agree to that one.

And stupid yes...only because I once had the ignorance to talk to you and then delete your conversations. No insult there.

As for the thread for my friend...I closed them all down because of an overwhelming sadness I felt at his loss. And to let those that CARED to know where he had disappeared to...not for unfeeling bastards such as yourself.

As for loss...I have lost many, so do NOT have the temerity to tell me I have no idea. I know nothing of yours as you know nothing of mine.

Tostito, enjoy your life. Enjoy putting people down and giving them hell. But do NOT expect me to rejoice in your perverse delight, especially at the moment, when my friend revelled in life and is no longer here to enjoy it.